Finally...some time to rest. I'm loving being a teacher and being on holiday break! No work until 1/6! Except for a side project I can do in my jammies! This means a break from public puking. No enduring of anything annoying to my poor tummy (examples...no spectrum of people smells...B.O...perfume...dirty diapers..., no riding in cars when nauseas, no forced/trapped listening to stories I've already heard, no expectations to be charming). No hiding my grimace of yuckiness. The "grimace" means one of the following: "I think if I eat I may not puke, but everything I think of eating makes me want to puke", "I think what I just ate to avoid puking is going to make me puke", "I think that you stink and I may puke", "I think that I may puke for no apparent reason what so ever". No one around ='s no explanations, no extra talking, no hiding how I feel. Some at home time is just what this girl needs.
Week 10 is behind us as of today. And so we embark upon week 11. Monday we get to see these little lovelies again. I'm praying they are on target. My weight is creeping up which is good for twins. We will see where I stand on Monday. Dr. Luke's book says 25 lbs by 20 weeks. We started at 137, and with 10 out of 20 weeks down, we are at 143. Up by 6 lbs. Dr. Luke says that the weight of these babies at birth is directly related to how much I gain all throughout this pregnancy. My major goal is to be able to take these babies home with me, and breast feed. I want them with me from moment one. I want no NICU separation. My best chance for that is at least 6 lb babies. My best shot for 6 lb babies is to gain weight, good weight...protein...healthy weight all the way throughout this pregnancy. So far, I'm blessed and thankful to have gained with all the puking going on. Dr. Luke says if I gain good weight all the way throughout, then breastfeeding will take it off quickly after the babies come. I'm pretty sure I will never be back to my size 6, but it's all worth it.
I've been having such a pukey week. We are trying out ensure plus shakes. So far so good, the first one is staying down. Sweet hubby planned our meals for the rest of the week. Then he grocery shopped. He is serious about following Dr. Luke's advice. I'm so incredibly thankful for him. These babies and I are blessed to have him as our hubby/daddy. When I stand back and watch him taking care of us, and being patient, and worrying, and planning for our future, I am filled with awe and gratitude. We have both grown so much in these years of struggle. Of course, here in this place, when I'm chuck full of babies, it's easier to let all of the waiting make some sort of sense.
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