Hello friends. It's here! I'm in week 12! On January 11th week 12 will be behind us. Tomorrow, a new journey with the specialist begins. I'm seeing Dr. A2 (my specialist's name also starts with a...so we are going to call him A2) tomorrow at 10 for a consult and an ultrasound. I'm wondering about this appointment a little...what will be discussed...what will a specialist have to say about my history and the twinness, and the crohn's, etc. etc.? Maybe nothing...maybe to this specialist I will be no big deal? Twins are really common these days...
Here's the thing, I don't know that I want to be regarded as "no big deal". There is also not much room in here for an alarmist perspective. I would like to sign up for something from the "happy medium" menu. Something like, "we are going to follow you once every four weeks or so, but you are doing great, so I am really not worried". Where do I sign up for that kind of care?
Either way, here is what I am standing on lately in regards to evidence of success thus far:
1. I have now had 4 successful (perfect) ultrasounds. During the last one, on 12/30, these little lovlies MOVED! That is the kind of proof of life this girl needs!
2. My preggo symptoms are reliable. They follow the same pattern as others who have held their babies and gazed into their sweet little eyes. Here is an example...I read that around week 10/11 some women experience an "easing" of their nausea. This has happened for me too. I haven't thrown up in 4 days, and counting. The nausea isn't gone, which is both annoying and comforting. It's just eased....its more like it was in the beginning when I could eat when it started and distract my tummy into forgetting about puking. This is quite a relief, especially since I'm back at work and am happy to avoid more public puking. Apparently, around now, the placentas have taken over supporting the pregnancy, making the "holding on" to the babies less dependent on the HCG, which is what makes us feel so yucky. Maybe, because I have two placentas in there, it's happening a bit before week 12 is over for me? Also, these sea bands have really helped! They aren't cute, but they are "cuter" than puking!
3. I have a baby bump!!! It's undeniable now. It's a cute little bump that is spreading upwards every day. I've gained 11 lbs so far, but I can only see it in my belly. I wish I had my favorite paige jeans in maternity right about now! Until then, I'm settling for leggings and sweat pants. And I've pulled out all of my size eight pants...none of them are the straight leg syle I've come to love, but I can make due I suppose. This is going to be a fashion adventure to be sure, especially since I will look like I'm 9 months at 6 months with twins. If any twin moms out there have tips, I'd love to hear them!
Also, we are weaning off of the support meds this week. Thus far, there has been no symptom changes to report with the removal of half of the estrogen and the progesterone. I have had a crazy headache for a few days, but I think that is more about a sinus infection I'm fighting instead of a withdrawal from the estrogen headache. If I'm lucky, I will get to wait until actual menopause to suffer from one of those again!
So take a deep breath fellow hopeful sisters (and a few brothers). Jan 11th is 4 days away! Certainly we can do four more days. I feel like I've been playing this hard-as-hell game of "Red Rover" the last 9 years. I feel like this 12 week mark is some kind of marathon finish line, in my head this "finish line" is really made up of fearful people holding hands with an iron grip, waiting for me to attempt yet another run to try to break through the 12 week mark. Well this time, we have this God given peace that has wavered a bit due to my flawed humanity, but this peace has never EVER left. I'm ready to make another run at the red rover line. This time, however, I will be visualizing this line as comprised of the people who love us. And instead of an iron grip and fearful faces, I'm going to imagine arms thrown open in hugs. When we announced on facebook this week over a hundred people sent us love. We were overwhelmed by the response, and humbled to think of all the prayers for us and these babies that have stormed the gates of heaven these past nine years. We are so thankful.
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